Today is the day of Charlie's birth! No one else is awake yet here but I am because I spent all night battling bathroom trips and horrible heartburn. I can't even lay down even though I am exhausted because then the fire comes up into my throat. I guess if I wasn't ready for sleep deprivation then too bad because it decided to come one night earlier than I thought.
I am so excited to see your face Charlie and immediately start to work on my new job of memorizing your features. I remember starting to memorize Jack's features and I do it now every day. I can't wait to take on this new task.
Jack- I am not looking forward to seeing you leave with Barbara today knowing it will be our last moment together like that but last night your Grampa ( who is driving here from Arizona right now) reminded me of something so cool. Hanging on the wall downstairs- we have a picture framed that shows me in my dad's arms and I am beaming from ear to ear. My smile could not be bigger and wow- I could not be cuter. ha ha. In the picture behind me is your uncle Jeff in his clear hospital bassinet. I don't know if it his actual day of birth or the next day- but the point is- I adored him. I still do. That is all I hope for you. That you'll adore Charlie and that as you read this whenever that is that you still do. Today- you are a big brother. That is important.
Oh man- I am tired and so pregnant- I feel like balling my eyes out right now. I am waiting until Jack starts to stir in his room so I can go be with you right when you wake up. Noni will be here in two and a half hours to get you. Then an hour later we'll head to the hospital. Then, c-section time. Then recovery. Then- time to adore our new little prince.
Minus the heartburn- I know that what I will feel today is love- a kind that makes it seem like God is visible in the room with us. The kind where the fact that He gives us the gift of this ability takes my breath away. "I can't believe He lets little us do this BIG thing. What a gift that cannot be measured." Those will be the words on my lips.
Your dad and I are looking forward to the next few days despite the difficulties they hold because they are going to be so special. I can't wait to see your eyes. One of you as they open into mine for the first time and the other of you as they see your brother for the first time.
Happy 1/11/11 Murphree boys.
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