It's just one more day and a couple hours until the big event of our family for this year! Charlie is going to be born! Oh- I have so many mixed emotions- on one hand- I could not be more excited to meet you face to face and begin this new relationship with you.
On the other hand, I am enjoying feeling you move around in my stomach, not having any breast pain from feeding and getting a regular night sleep.
Tonight I watched you Jack playing with tupperware for about 30 minutes all by yourself. You are not aware of what is about to happen to this house and to our family. In a way that makes me sad because tomorrow is your last day of being our only child. And yet- you won't remember your life without Charlie, he'll never know life without you and I hope that dad and I do a good enough job of building our life that you love each other and would not want to be without each other if you could.
Jack- you are going to spend the birthday with Barbara and Gregg (Noni and Papi) and then two days at home with Gramma and Papa and then two days with Grammy and Grampa. They'll be given their "Jackstructions" but in the end- as long as you don't get hurt and have to join us at the hospital- it doesn't matter- we'll be working around the clock to get to know Charlie and give him the same kind of attention you got just 21 months ago.
I do want to write more but right now I am experiencing some pain that makes me think I should lay down. Don't you try to come out early Charlie! We have an appointment in the morning and then I am getting a manicure and pedicure for myself as my last act of independence for some time. Then we'll wait for grandparents to arrive before Tuesday's big event- the gut slicing, baby producing c-section of my dreams. So weird- I want to erase that but I want to leave it. I don't know.
Oh- I should mention that tomorrow, your dad is probably going to be accepting a job to work at Mission Hospital where you'll both be born. He will be learning to be a sterile processing tech. Meaning cleaning and organizing the tools that are used in the business of a hospital. Sounds like a job suited for your dad wayyyyy more than me. We are praying that this is the right move for this particular moment. Don't really know but not always knowing is unfortunately part of life.
What we do know is that God is asking us to put our feet into the river BEFORE he parts the waters to reveal that promised land. We are going to wade out in the water and see what is ahead. If the waters don't part- it means He wants us to go deeper in- but we know for certain that He is a trustworthy lifeguard and He'll be wading in the water with us!!!
Sleep tight brothers- you are going to meet soon!
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