dedication to end your scrapbook

I am writing you a dedication at the end of your scrapbook that I am now finishing of your first year, and I thought this would be an excellent place to write the draft.

This year, meeting you, has been the most amazing life changing year of my life. From the moment that Dr. Hashad told us that we should head to the hospital, I have been a new person. That night in the hospital in labor not knowing what was to come-- I did not know that I was about to feel like my life began. When I saw you, it felt like the beginning of me.

This past year has been more than I could have imagined. In all the best of ways. I prayed for you and prayed for you and yet- God answered prayers that I never even imagined. Everything about you and your life this first year has been amazing.

During the first few weeks, we had no idea that we would get to sleep all night again. But- at 9 weeks, you started sleeping all night and have done so almost every night since. You fought laying on your tummy and would squirm and cry. Then, you started posing and smiling at us when you were on your tummy. I cried and cried learning how to breastfeed because of the pain, but now I have cried and cried this week as I begin to wean you from my special time with you. I had the toughest time taking you to day care and going back to work. Then I saw that you had so many growth steps because of interacting with other kids all day.

We marveled at your ability to track us as we walked past you in the living room, now you can clap your hands. We waited and waited for you to crawl and now you are moments away from walking and we can't keep you in one place. We received training on how to put on your diapers, then today I scooped puke out of your mouth. You were an absolute string bean and now you have rolls on your thighs and a belly that hangs over your diaper.

Watching you change every day- has taken our breath away. That is the best description. We lean over your crib every night, look at you sleep and our breath is held for a moment as we see the peace that is you.

I love you beyind the kind of words I have available to me. Being your mom is the biggest blessing that God could give to me and easily the second purpose of my entire life other than loving the God who gave you to me.