So, here I am on another Tuesday afternoon not feeling well in my pajamas and sitting on the couch. But today is different- I got to see my baby again today.
Our appointment today consisted of the usual blood, urine, weight, blood pressure, etc. However, when trying to get a good measurement on the machine, the baby was positioned in a way that made the measurement difficult. This did not bother us at all because it meant that we spent many minutes looking at our little baby wriggling around in its little area. We both felt like time stood still so I can't say if it was 15 minutes or 5. At one point the screen was looking right at the face of the baby and the face moved a little while we were looking at it. We both made a gasp and that was a second where I remembered where I was. I knew this would be an amazing and indescribable experience but you just don't know until it is happening to you what the word surreal really means.
So here's the secret- the tech, named Carrie, who was very nice got a shot that makes the assertion that this little baby is a little baby boy. We want to tell everyone but it is not certain and that makes it so tough. We should wait until next month to start telling people when the picture is better but she got a really good shot. A baby boy-- I can't believe it. A little boy to love and to teach and to take to baseball. A boy who will hopefully love us and have big blue eyes. It is so much to imagine right now without crying.
I don't know how to not tell our parents that it may be a boy but I always imagined telling them in a way that was fun and definitive. Well-- we'll just have to see.
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