So many times I have wanted to write to you since last July 18th but felt like if I didn't have the time to update all things we were going through that I did not want to do it at all. That was a mistake-- I have so much to update you on about this-- the most tremendous season of your life so far.
Enough is enough whether I'm tired or not. One year ago today was my interview at Rainbow Acres and that is where I currently work and give it my all. In this past year-- God has moved mountains, performed miracles, taken us through some tough valleys, shown us the way with a bright lamp to our path-- He's just done it all with us this year. I can't wait to tell you about it. I want you to know that God has woven a GREAT story for our family. We are in the middle of an amazing chapter right now. He will do many more seasons like this in your life that will make up your "life story" but it is our job to tell you about these seasons that you'll someday forget. It's our job to make sure you know without a doubt-- walking life with God-- means He will be constantly working out faith with exciting and challenging life. Living life without Him has no promises at all. I hope you know His story is the one you want. Life that forces you to see the beauty in the process-- or else you'll just lose your cool. (which I have lost my cool numerous times in this process. Hopefully you don't remember too much of that when you're older, cuz I'm working on it.)
Let's see if we can start at today and work our way back. I now know I cannot wait for free time to write-- writing, exercising, breathing, praying have to be a conscious choice I make for myself so that I can be the best me I can be. (Spoiler alert- life in AZ is NOT a slower pace than in CA- less traffic, but more to do)
Above is a video of Jack's first tball game-- second at bat! I have to admit- I had complete butterflies in my stomach. It was one of the most terrifying and exhilarating moments of my life. I was feeling such protection of your thoughts, Jack. You are such a careful, and thoughtful observer. As you had walked up to be with your team in your uniform, you looked back at us and smiled your sweet smile and waved at us- my heart just melted. I melted and cherished every last millisecond. But when you were up to bat, I knew that the same sweet boy who waved at his mama, might be worried about swinging at the air a few times. We are seeing you blossom lately in wonderful and intelligent ways while still struggling deeply with concern for control.
The two of you are this tough right now- you got up at 6:15 am to have breakfast and get ready for the day. I went to work at Rainbow Acres, Jack you went to school and Charlie you were home with daddy to run errands and do home projects all morning.
Then, at lunch, daddy took Charlie to Bright Futures day care so that he could go to work at the hospital across the street. At 3pm, Jack was brought across the street by Karen from his school to Bright Futures day care. At 4:30pm, I picked you both up and whisked you through clothes changing to your baseball uniform for the first time! We headed to your game and daddy was able to take a break and meet us there-- your game was pure cuteness Jack. Charlie- you were the best fan-- you cheered and clapped at all the kids and paid attention to what was happening. The video shows how batting went. :) Fielding basically-- the balls did not come near you Jack and that was good because your feet were planted and you did not move an inch. You looked to be carefully evaluating the entire field and this whole thing happening before your eyes.
The weather was perfect and all around there were cheers and people enjoying a Wednesday afternoon of baseball and kids in our new town, Cottonwood. In some ways, I would say I feel at home here, and in other moments I would say I am far from settled. This was a decidedly "settled" moment.
As if that wasn't a long enough day- we hung out at the field after the game and had a picnic dinner before heading over to church for Awana! You had a great time at Awana with teachers that adore both of you.
Quick change for Charlie into pajamas because it was pajama party night for your class called Puggles.
We got home at 8pm filthy and tired- so then I showered you and corralled you to your beds by 8:45pm. 6:15am to 8:45pm of constant activity!!!! You are amazing and this life here expects a lot from you! I try to remind myself of that when you are crazy out of your minds and can't obey to save your life.
We'll do most of it again tomorrow but without Awana. I can't wait to see you step up to the plate again. I dream that you will love to step up to the plate, that you will learn the beautiful rules of the game, that you will learn to work hard on a team. I pray that you will enjoy this AND learn how to make commitments and take good care of your body. Maybe you will play this game all your life- maybe you'll be a coach some day for your sons. I can't wait to watch your journey every day.
No one in the world could be more delicious than the two of you. Even on your toughest days-- you get kissed and snuggled CONSTANTLY.
I guess I'm going to head to bed now, but I'm glad to have not put this off another day. We are not guaranteed another day- so whenever you read this-- don't put things off for tomorrow if you can do them today. Show love, show kindness, talk to God, talk to me.
Love you Ws.
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