first look

I saw your first picture today. I may have believed that something was going on as I threw up, dry heaved and shoved my way through the last month of my life. But until today-- I never believed you were there. Your heart was beating about 160 beats a minute and as soon as I saw it, mine started to do the same. Your dad started to cry-- he didn't really think you were there either. I feel bad that seeing had to be believing in this case-- because we made you as people that believe in God without seeing Him with our eyes. I am so excited to see your next picture and your next and the million after that. You will be born into a world where unlimited pictures can be taken and kept by just about anyone-- but this will be your first and that won't ever change. My nausea from helping you grow has been quite a time but I appreciate all the hard work you are doing now to be strong so that I can squeeze you and kiss you. I am so glad I got to see you today. I love you.